So yesterday I was having a rough day because of how it started. I had a great morning, but I was stressing about whether or not it was a date, if I had royally messed something up, does he like me, did I not let him be a man and come pick me up, yadda, yadda, etc., etc.
If it’s one thing I have learned, it’s that a guy WILL pursue you if he is interested. I left the door open (telling him I had a nice time and that next time…) because I am open to seeing where this could go, but it is ultimately the guy who has to make the first move. It sets the tone for a majority of the relationship and I want to follow and be led by a godly man who is submitting to and walking with Christ daily. If there is a next time, I will let him come pick me up. haha.
I asked my friends to pray for me as I also prayed for peace, contentment, patience and faith from and in my Father to NOT stress over these questions and He blessed me with just that! I have been overwhelmed with peace since April which is weird because it was before finals time, I needed to pack and move, pay bills, get things done etc. But I had peace. God is strange like that and I love it.
This is what my Savior said about peace:
Matthew 5:9: “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.”
Matthew 11:28-30: “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
John 14:27: “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
John 16:33: “These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”
John 20:19: “Then the same day at evening, being the first day of the week, when the doors were shut where the disciples were assembled for fear of the Jews, came Jesus and stood in the midst, and saith unto them, Peace be unto you.”
God made rest and He wants us to rest. I’m now functioning out of a place of rest and when I sleep, He always brings peace to my life.
I’m at peace about my singleness again. :) YES! It feels WONDERFUL because I can properly rejoice in the godly relationships that are sprouting around me, the fruitful engagements that are taking place and the godly marriages that are beginning and continuing on a journey. I don’t want to be bitter and angry like I was. That is NO fun. I know being a believer is no guarantee for happiness ALL the time. We are subjected to heartache, heartbreak and sorrow like everyone else. Jesus totally experienced the emotins that we do. What a beautiful connecting factor: Jesus and we experience the same emotions. Right now, He knows what my heart is feeling and He knows what I long for. He feels that.
Jesus, thank you for Your peace and Your holiness and beauty!